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I know I've been M.I.A. for a while now. I've been doing my best to focus on myself for a little bit but the next chapter of my life is about to begin and so you can expect much more posts because... Tomorrow I begin my bachelor of media and communications. I start my first official day as a legitimately university student!
I have to admit it's nerve racking, I've been looking back over the past 2 years of my life and assessing everything. Two years ago I was depressed, miserable, lost, feeling like a complete failure and fresh out of yet another job. Every time I would lose a job or leave one, I felt like part of me kept giving up on life because all I kept hearing from myself and others was "what are you going to do now?", "You won't have any money" and "better start looking for another job then". My life consisted of dead end jobs and unsuccessful job interviews and this never ending process had inevitably left me feeling emotionally, mentally and physically drained. I felt so low and thought so little of myself that I just caved and settled for a job I hated. I bared with the endless criticism I was given in the job of how poorly I performed (at no fault of my own may I add) and stuck at it for an entire year, until the boss decided to cut me lose due to low performance rates. Safe to say when I got the call I cried, but it was not in sadness of loosing another job or failing yet again, it was because I was so overwhelmingly relieved that yet another horrible and depressing part of my life had decided to collapse in on itself. See an incredible wise person once told me that if I'm not liking my life, I should look at the things that make me sad and make a change on them, so I had decided to take some time out throughout the past couple of years to focus on my, then, rapidly declining mental health. So I was not working and I eventually also moved from where I was living and away from the extra stress that situation had been causing me! After a while my councillor felt confident enough in me to suggest I start to add things back into my life because at the time my life consisted of very basic activities because I had no work, no study and minimal stress. She suggested looking into studying, to go to uni, so I said I would look into it but it was another months before I even thought about it for real. My best friend and current housemate gave me a few booklets and information on uni and how to get in. I found that taking a uni prep course would be best as it would ease me back into studying and introduce uni life to me, it also happen to be the most successful option for me to chose from to be able to secure a place into any course I decided to do. After self doubting myself for the entire 6 months, literally balling in my maths exam because I didn't know how to find the X and Y gradients and subtract one area from another to find the value of X area, I then told myself "well maybe wait 6 months and go back for the second semester course again". I got my results back and passed everything, I mean I only passed maths by 0.9% which means ultimately I JUST passed! But I did it! I already had an idea of what I wanted to study, I just had to make sure I chose the right course for me, so I contacted the uni for some advice and ultimately found that "Bachelor in media and communications" with a major in journalism, was what I wanted to do. I'll also be taking a few photography units as well. Its a huge deal for me as growing up in an area where... well let's just say uni is not exactly expected or encouraged to much... and of course thinking I'd never be able to afford it (THANK GOD FOR STUDENT LOANS HAHA) I feel like this is a huge achievement for me. I'm hoping to possibly do an exchange program in the second to last or last year of study as well, which I feel would be such an amazing experience! For anyone considering uni studies I promise it is an experience to enjoy and grow from. If you need any advice of help feel free to ask me or contact your nearest uni, or a friend! I can't wait for the next few years of my life, the things I will learn and do. It's all so exciting! Stay amazing! Stay beautiful! xoxo Aimee
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Meagen Reyes
2/26/2017 07:04:03 am
Love it <3
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Aimee
2/26/2017 07:06:00 am
Thanks so much meg ❤
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