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25th of April... ANZAC DAY!
Today is a day, not to mourn but to celebrate and remember the thousands upon thousands of men and women who not only sacrificed their lives for our future, but by doing so, their spirit lives on through the men and women today who are serving to protect us as their comrades before. ANZAC DAY is the solemn day of remembrance of the "Australian and New Zealand Army Corps" soldiers who fought and died at Gallipoli in 1915. But it is also a day of remembrance for all soldiers who have fought and died for their country! Australians recognise 25 April as a day of national remembrance, which takes two forms. Commemorative services which are held across the nation, at the many war memorials around the country, at dawn, the time of the original landing. While later in the day, former servicemen and servicewomen meet to take part in marches through the country’s major cities and in many smaller centres. Anzac Day has eclipsed rememberance day, in which we as a country stand still for 1 minute to reflect and remember those who have fought so gallantly to protect and serve their country. Many men and women use this beautiful yet haunting time to remember loved ones whilst others simply pay respect to the fallen brothers and sisters of our great country! The historical and well recognised "ODE TO REMEMBRANCE" is read at ceremonies across the nation. "They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn. At the going down of the sun and in the morning We will remember them." So today, whether you attended a service or you're just sitting back at home take a moment to remember and give thanks to those who so willingly laid down their lives so that we could live. LEST WE FORGET xoxo
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Its midnight... I am ever so charmingly laying in bed in my awesome batman onesie, doing what I do best at this crazy time of night, scrolling through Facebook and Instagram, swiping on tinder and opening snapchats! So why the sudden urge to blog about something so seemingly average? Well let me tell you a story first okay? Once upon a time there was a young girl in her room, much like myself, but instead of scrolling through news feeds and drooling over hotties on tinder, she was flipping magazine pages and drooling over the Jonas brothers, Mcfly and Jessie McCartney while watching Barbie Princess movies on VHS. She longed to be as elegant and graceful as Princess Barbie, she wanted to be as skinny and beautiful as tyra banks, Claudia schiffer and Kate moss, as fierce as Beyoncè and Christina Aguilera, sing like Vanessa amorosi, be as sexy and confident as Shania twain and have millions of dollars like Mariah! BUT... Unfortunately all she saw in the mirror was a short, fat, ugly, loser! She had never been skinny, she had never been "beautiful" she tripped, stumbled and stuttered around boys and had absolutely no idea just how incredible she really was. She was only ever told the things she wasn't, she was only ever told everything she is not! "ugly" "worthless" "useless" "loser" "stupid" Not once was she told all the things she was and deserved to know herself as! She looked through the photos, the movies and even around her real life and she just didn't feel like she belonged anywhere! It's funny to think about this little girl now days because she's gone... She doesn't exist anymore. I would tell you that little girl was me but i think I would be lying because if I saw her I don't think I would recognise her. Over the years I've done crazy things to try "fit in" or be "confident" and "sexy" but none of them worked, I always felt so left out and just unworthy of the life and the love I so hopelessly and desperately wanted. Until one day I did a very small thing for myself, I dyed my hair, just two small parts with colour and what happened was partially incredible and mostly unsurprising. I was bullied for it. Here I was, having finally decided to jump and do something for me and EVERYONE noticed! I mean, parents, friends and family, students and teachers... People actually SAW ME! But I had almost everyone coming at me telling me it was a mistake, saying I couldn't be at school with coloured hair, that it looked stupid etc. It was that moment I realised no matter how hard I tried there would always be someone who would never be able to truly accept me. So I said FUCK IT! I thought to myself "why should I try hard to please everyone else and make myself miserable if they aren't going to be happy anyway? Why not make myself happy if that's the case?" So I did! I dyed my hair, I wore makeup and straightened my hair, I wore what I wanted to, I said what I wanted and how I felt with no fear of the consequences. Although more confident in myself I wouldn't say I "loved" myself, But I was growing. I slowly stopped caring what everyone thought, my only regret was that I didn't do it sooner. Over the years I slowly grew to liking myself and being content with how I looked although I always had things I wished I could change (we all do) but I realised that if I were to say make my thighs smaller, I would have to shrink my tummy to and then of course my waist and then make my arms thinner or it would look weird and then make my face slimmer and feet smaller... With every little imperfection I wanted to change I would in turn have to change everything else that made me perfectly me. I began to love myself after that lesson learnt. So fucking what if I
But these facts are all apart of me and most of them are very superficial... Someday it may change, maybe it won't I don't know. What I do know though, is that
OF COURSE, MOST IMPORTANTLY...
For every flaw and for every single little thing that makes me imperfectly perfect! It certainly may not always feel like, especially when you compare yourself to the rest of the world, that you are beautiful! But let me give you some advice! Something i grew up telling everyone and never could do myself until recently. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY YOUR HAPPINESS IS ALL THAT MATTERS ❤️ #FuckTheHaters #LoveYourself #Beautiful #You With all my love Aimee Lee xoxo "Beauty comes from simply accepting that You are perfect as your are!" So let's take it back to when will released the first 3 shows of his tour, I really should have had more faith that he would do more shows because I had a bit of money saved up and then when I saw he wasn't going to come to Perth I ended up spending it. About a week later he released more dates and then the whole tour and go figure Perth was apart of the tour. So here's little old me, a little torn and disappointed that there was NO CHANCE I was getting my hands on a ticket as most of the other shows had sold out in under a week, some in a day! I didn't think there was a chance that i would even see him let alone get tickets. That didn't stop me from trying. Somehow I managed to rustle up $60 (for a VIP meet and greet ticket) but I didn't want to go alone, going with friends is more fun so I asked my best friend sandrina if she would like to come and so I ended up buying to general admission tickets and the date was set 18th March 2016! YAY! Now this was over 3 months in advance so it was a big countdown, about 90 days for memory. But it was still so exciting, after about a year and a half I was FINALLY seeing him again AND I got to be there for his first solo Perth show (sold out as well) and I can't even begin describing how happy that made me just knowing that in 3 short months I was getting to see him again. Now fast forward almost 3 months, the tickets all printed off and here I was messaging everyone I could think of to find out when he was landing and who he was flying with because I was considering going to the airport myself but also helping a few fans get the chance to see him as they couldn't go to the show. The next morning I left for the city, tickets ready and change of clothes (as if I was going home before the show haha) I was busking for a little bit before my friend came in to take over at about 3pm and if I had any hope of going to the airport I HAD to leave at 3:15 NO later! So split second last minute decision I raced to the station and met my friend Rhiannon (who was also coming to the show) and we got on the almost hour long bus ride to the airport, wills flight was due to land at 4 and we were meant to get there at 10 past, but I wasn't to worried because it takes time to get to the gate from the plane but then I realised it would also take us time to get there to, so I started panicking that we would miss it... Then I checked and his flight was running 15 minutes late so he landed when we got there and we raced from one end of the airport to the other end and found his gate. We sat down and had a brief chat with the other girls already waiting there and within 5 minutes the plane had landed and they were opening the gate for passengers coming off. Standing there already nervous and shaking because I could NOT believe he was about to be here and that he was literally only seconds away, the excitement was building, that's to say the least. Then... I saw his face and just lost it, I couldn't help but cry I was so emotional. (For some this may sound crazy and a little obsessed but that's ok because it probably is, but he means a lot more than people realise and I think we can all relate to that in some way) So there I am standing there TRYING and FAILING to compose myself as will made his way through the other few girls there before finally getting to me and the first thing he says (which is usually the same thing he says to me every time I see him haha) "why are you crying?" And all I could say was "I haven't seen you in like a year and a half, I missed you" and I gave him a huge hug. I have to say, whenever I hug him something just makes me feel completely peaceful, I can't explain it, other than that the world seems to be quiet and still and nothing seems wrong it all just seems to feel ok. Normally that would have reminded me to stay strong and keep going but this time it only reminded me of the main reason I was there, to say 1 thing to him that I had been wanting to tell him for a while now. After he hugged me he immediately asked "how are you?" and this time I didn't say "I'm not bad" or "I'm ok" or "could be better", I finally said "I'm good, I'm actually happy" See for the past few years struggling with depression and anxiety will became somewhat of a comfort for me and sometimes I would message him and vent because even if he didn't reply it just felt like he was there for me especially when it felt like no one else was. Sometimes he would reply and tell me it would be OK and that I just had to work on it and work hard and that just showed me how much he really cared. But the past 6 months I've really been growing and I've finally gotten to a good place in my life, that's all I wanted to tell him was that after everything id been through, I held on like he said and it did get better and I'm ok now. He said he was glad to hear it and he was proud of me. That's all I needed, it's all I've ever needed from anyone and coming from him? Well that meant more than anything in the world! He also asked if I was going to the show and my response was funny because I just said "dude! it's your first sold out solo show... You think I would miss it?" And we both laughed! Then After hanging with him for 10 minutes and walking to baggage with him and the few other girls we got a couple more photos and I gave him one last hug and then he had to leave (although me and Rhiannon did pass him again outside the terminal but we decided to keep walking as we knew he was busy). OH WAIT... DID I MENTION, I got to meet some of his crew including max AND TOM JORDAN!!!!! Let's just say I've been a fan of toms almost as long as will so that was super exciting for me (apparently only me haha). We also randomly bumped in to marni from Geordie shore which was cool. Now flash forward an hour or so, me and Rhiannon got back to the city and decided to firstly FIND the venue to ensure we knew where to go right away. Once we found it and saw there was no line, a lady came out to see if we needed help and ended up telling us that most people would come at about 7:30 (doors opened at 8) so we decided to come at about 7 just to be safe. She also said if we have any troubles just to mention her name and she would help us out. So at about 6:50 we started walking back to the venue and got there just on 7 and no one was there so we just waited at the door and we got to listen to will do soundcheck, he sounded so good it was fun standing there listening in. Within 5 minutes two girls started walking down and they were chilling with us and we started talking, we made friends with them to, they were super nice, they're names were Sarsha and Taylor. We not only were in line together we stood together inside and were dancing and having fun. The beauty of music is that it can bring people together. So after waiting an hour the doors finally opened and we went inside, I did say on more than one occasion that I would be "front and centre" and that's EXACTLY where I was, in fact I was the very first person in line and first to the stage. There was absolutely no where else I was going to be for this show. I mean hello? It's me here! Haha. We waited close to 2 hours for him to come on, the first hour was waiting around for people to get in and we just listened to the over head music (which no offence amps, it sucked!) then the DJ came out and started throwing out some old school 90s and a bit of new school and everyone was just getting so pumped up, after about 45 minutes of that he left and after another 10 minutes Tom jordan stepped on stage and had a quick chat before introducing will to the stage and then that was it the whole venue was screaming for him. I have to say I heard the screams loud and clear until he started singing and then it was like I didn't hear anything else but his voice for a few moments. His set list was insane, about 5 originals and and 18 covers including hotline bling as his encore. Everyone was just singing along and dancing, the energy was through the roof, the vibe was good and it was nothing but love! We spent hours dancing and singing with people who were all there for one reason, to watch the incredible talent that is William singe. In the most unbiased opinion I can give (because let's face it I was only ever going to rave about it anyway), the only thing I can say that I was even remotely unhappy with was the fact we had to wait basically 3 hours to see him (which of course was well worth it) and the fact that it had to end eventually. I was a little sad due to the big wait and countdown only for the day as a whole to be over before I could blink. It went by way to fast. Other than the fact I was anxious to see him and sad he had to wrap it up eventually, the entire day in itself was the most amazing day and I could not be more proud of him. The fact he had hundreds of people singing along to original songs that he hasn't even released yet, shows just how hard he's worked to get where he is. The collective days may be over but this is just the tip of the iceberg for the incredible artist that is will singe and I'm excited to see just how far he goes. William I'm so proud of you and you're only going up, I can't wait to see what the future holds for you. "Determination and passion is what makes a dream become reality and that's just what he has done." |
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