Dear...
If you had only 24 hours to live...
What would you do? What would you say?
Now go ahead and live!
What would you do? What would you say?
Now go ahead and live!
Dear...
An Ode. A Story. Dear Depression...
I don't want to hurt your feelings, but let's face it nobody wants you here, why don't you just leave. I hate you, you make me miserable, you're annoying and way too much to handle, like all the time! OKAY... I can't exactly blame you for everything, you're only the reaction to somebody’s actions. You're a symptom caused from someone else's mistakes, sometimes my mistakes! I'm sorry. Can I even say that? You're not a person, you're not even alive. I guess in a way you are alive, you live inside my soul and eat away at it leaving darkness and despair... OH MY GOD DON'T YOU EVEN CARE? Can't you tell how confused and upset I am? Can you not see the pain you cause me? Why must you do this to me? Why do I ask so many questions? I should stop, I feel bad for blaming you. I really should be thanking you, you're confused aren't you? Let me explain myself and perhaps you'll understand what I mean. See you have taught me a lot over these years. Most importantly you have taught me that there is no light without darkness and everything that goes up must come down. But you showed me that when you hit rock bottom there's only one way left to go, I would never have appreciated all the wonderful things I have in my life now had I not been in such a dark state once before. I certainly wouldn’t be as strong as I am now if it was not for being beaten, tired and weak because of you. You forced my hand, you forced me to fight to find light. You made me more determined and motivated to do and be better. I should also thank you for clearing my life of those who were not worthy of my time. People who could not stick around while I was down, only to come crawling back when I’m finally back on top. I certainly don’t need people dragging me down like that. I certainly didn't need those people who were so scared of the dark they feared to walk with me but instead walked above in the light waiting for me to emerge on the other side only to say "hey I'm always here" or "I'm glad you made it" and want to walk with me once more. No thank you. It's strange how time changes things, once you were my best... my only friend. From their, as I grew, we grew... apart. You became that "friend" who messages you every second week to touch base. As I began to see the light again, without you around, you became that friend who just... you know... never came around. Suddenly before I knew it you were the person I once knew as friend and now just know, that I occasionally see on the rare occasion you're visiting my town, or perhaps I visit yours and we nod briefly, perhaps say hello and make light chit chat before we part ways again and I come back to my life now. But despite the fact I hate you and I never want to see you again and despite the fact I know I will always bump into you some how, someway. I should really thank you. Thank you for making me who I am today. Thank you for giving me the strength I have to see tomorrow! Fairwell, see you soon! Aimee
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